10:58 p.m.---Sunday, May 26, 2002
Well, it's getting late but I took a very long nap earlier (hey, I haven't been sleeping very well for days!) so I am not ready to go to bed yet. I am actually feeling better still. Today was pretty good. Actually managed to go to Amanda's and work on the editing with everyone and not die (oh sickness at least, since we were all pretty exhausted after 5 hours)! AND THEN (this is the "exciting part") I came home and I ate! A whole meal! And I did not get sick! I am actually really surprised that I didn't get sick, since I ate really quickly. I some how had the idea that I had to hurry up and eat as much as possible BEFORE I felt sick, even though I also had the thought that eating so much so fast would make my sick. It didn't. So anyway, I am feeling a little better.
On the other hand, since I am feeling better I have more time to squander on silly things that do not include just lying around. True I was productive enough to finish hemming the sleeves on the Volt jacket, but I didn't want to go and turn on my sewing machine so late at night so since then I've been trying to visualize a new blog layout (with Shinya!) and looking at TONS of Dir en grey pictures. As if I really need more, ne. I have WAAAAAAYYYYYYYY to many already (around 94mb so far). I'm sure that I don't NEED all of these, because really, what purpose are they serving? Most of them just sit about and take up space and look pretty... Grrr. Damn the band that made me such a fangirl! But really how could anyone possibly resist? What are the chances that *5* incredibly talented people would ever have such an awesome band together? Dir fans really should consider themselves lucky! (also they are all good looking, another amazing feat! talent AND good looks! all in one!) *cough* He he. Dir rant. Wah. Didn't mean to do thattttttt!
So, new layout soon. Hopefully with Shinya (98 pics of him can't go wrong right? one of them HAS to be the right one!) It has to be good though because it's the one that's going to be up when I'm in Japan.
Yuki
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11:07 a.m.---Sunday, May 26, 2002
gahhhhh. So much for not being dead anymore! Last night was completely miserable. I feel better right NOW, but that's no indicator apparently. It's a good thing that I don't have to go to school until Wednesday! I wonder if my dad is still doing his birthday stuff today.... I really hope so, even though I would like to get over to Amanda's to work on the editing stuff. Just a few days left to work on that! Ahhhhhh!
Anyway, I completely went insane last night and cried for about an hour because I was sick and I need to finish the Volt Kruger (The Bouncer) jacket that I'm supposed to be making. Really though, I have alot left to do on that... Work which I was PLANNING on getting done this weekend (so much for that!). Grrrrrr. Must. Get. Better...
Yuki
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12:35 p.m.---Saturday, May 25, 2002
^_^ I'm still alive... Despite the fact that my parents have come up with many horrible reasons for this mystery illness (anything from appendicitis to food poisoning) I am getting better! yay! I stay home from school yesterday since I was DYING. No, not really but I fely absolutely horrible. Constant mild pain for over 24 hours can really wear a person out though! The only thing that I regret is being too sick to A) wash my hair B) wash my face. I spent over an hour in the bathroom this morning repairing the damages! My dad knocked on the door at one point and said "are you okay?" hhhhaaaai. I haven't eaten anything (much) in days though. I'm starvinnnnnnnnnnggggg!
I must say that these past fews days have been very productive though! I didn't get any work done on the Volt jacket, I slept for over 20 hours (give or take, on and off), I watched "Batman Forever", "Blues Clues" AND "Digimon" (oh yeah! beat that! ha ha ha!... I was bored...Nothing good on TV... oh wait, I like Batman and Blues Clues...). So I have gotten a grand total offffffff ABSOLUTELY NOTHING done! Yay! *gasp* I don't even have anything j-rock related to rant about! That's how out of the loop I am! *gasp* Oh wait, here's a pointless j-rocky thing (and I lied about the rant, see next paragraph): I never realize how lovely my "wall paper" is until I get to lie in bed for long periods of time and stare at it. True, it makes me look like a senseless fangirl with a high-quality printer, but it is damn entertaining!
BUT BUT BUT! As if I would FORGET THIS!!!! I meant to do this last night when it was ACTUALLY still the 25th in Japan, but I was dead, so I couldn't *sob*. .... *pause* HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY MACCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIII!!!!!!!! Ha ha ha ha. It would be wrong for me NOT to mention that, ne. Then everyone would really think there was something wrong with me! *hugs imaginary machi* As if I would forget... I was going to make a special blog layout for the occasion, but I didn't get to do that either. Oh well. ^_^
Yuki
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09:36 p.m.---Thursday, May 23, 2002
Oh gods, I feel like I've going to die! I dunno what happened, but some time since I was driving to Amanda's house today I've gotten very sick. My stomach is all icky feeling and I can't really eat anything... *sob* I don't wanna be sick again! I'm just getting over a cold! My mom said that if I don't feel better tomorrow she's going to make me go to a doctor. I better go lie down more. I've been trying to sleep since 5:30pm without luck.
Also, Ishiko-chan, we are staying AAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL the way diagonally in the wrong direction from where we wanted to be in Tokyo. Now we're really going to have to learn the whole subway/train system! But we are close to the airport. I'm a little disappointed, because somehow my mom (who looked at the map originally) told me it was closer. But it's not. Mou.... But it's better to have a place to stay than nothing, ne.
Yuki
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09:33 p.m.---Wednesday, May 22, 2002
I FINALLY got some good comfy shoes! I didn't get my "pirate sneakers", but the ones I got were actually the same brand. Stupid Hot Topic didn't have the pirate sneakers in my size! OR the other shoes I wanted! So I sulked about the mall with Ishiko and Miko for a while... Then I bought a "consolation" shirt with which to console my shoeless-ness. MISTAKE. I found good shoes RIGHT after in a store I'd already looked in! They cost alot more than I wanted to spend on one pair of shoes (I needed two), but they DID have them in my size and I DID think the guy who worked there was attractive (i'm a freak, i'll explain this one somewhere below...and it does need it, i'm sure.). So anyway, white, sneaker/mary janes with cherries on them. Comfortable. Nice. Expensive. Anyway, I'm sure that Miko (since she was there the whole time with me most) is probably like "eewwwwww, yuki! guy not good looking!" BUT, that's me... damn skinny guys in black with piercings and dyed hair and hats! Really, it almost never fails. Apparently if you're not Asian that is how you sneak past my radar... I've noticed that guys like this are not uncommon though, nor are they usually what I'd call "attractive" in a based-on-looks sense (especially looking at the lovely boys who turn me into a fangirl, such as Tochi), but they are usually very nice. (if my friends really still don't get this, which I think you should since i'm bothing to explain it out of boredom, just think back to my famous three-year-crush. as close to this look at Conant ever got.) Anyway, I guess this thing is like Miko's thing with guys needing to have long hair. Okay, okay, okay. Enough Yuki.... Just post the stupid quiz that you came here to post!
Which MALICE MIZER pairing are you? created by: Kelsey.
Mmmm.. Kozi and Klaha... If I read MM fics (which I don't even when I do read the occasional fic) that would be a good one...
Yuki
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01:47 p.m.---Tuesday, May 21, 2002
Aaack. *falls over* Frustration. I need a doctor's appointment. *dies* I can't finish my college stuff without one. *dies again* But the next appointment available was in June! June 11th! I am WAY WAY too busy that week (it's pre-graduation AND pre-Japan) to fit in anything else! I'm so upsetttttt! *sniffle* Now I have to find another doctor! (even though the one I wanted is new anyway, since my stupid doctor up and ran off!)
I really do not want to think about this anymore! I'm going to go eat some ice cream or something! (yes, I can eat to make myself feel better. i actually need to gain weight, so it's okay!)
Yuki
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10:20 p.m.---Monday, May 20, 2002
Ha ha ha ha! I should be going to bed, but I don't feeeeeeeeel like it! (I'm really happy right now for NO reason! Instant euphoria! And some stupid people wonder why I don't bother drugs! I'd be WAY to insane if I was unnaturally high! And plus it's icky! Ick!)
So anyway, today was my last day of work! I'm kinda sad because that means a little less money than I COULD have made, but I guess it's okay. I need some time to relax and sew up that Volt jacket (almost done, except zippers and spikes!). Maybe I might even have some time to read again!
I really do think that Miko has gone completely insane. She's such a nut. She's been in a bad mood for MONTHS on and off and she always takes the most of it out on me! ME! I got sick of it and I yelled at her this morning because she was about to throw a fit over something really stupid. Last week she said that she thought she had PMDD (which is like having PMS all the time), but I dunno. I just think she's crazy. Either that or she REALLY doesn't like me. I really don't like her much right now... (cuz she's mean, that's all, and not just "i'm picking on you" mean! bitchy, snarly, I-hate-you mean. and she told *cough* some people that she gets mad every time she talks to me. and she gets mad at me for REALLY stupid reasons ALL the TIME. can't expect me to LIKE that, ne.) So anyway, that's really bothering me.
so, yeah, dir en grey (inside joke, i used to say that all the time when i ran out of things to say, because it usually started a conversation) I just thought of this too: "You know me! I love God!" Why did I say that today? In Art.... oh right, it was because those people in Wal-Mart on Saturday night thought we were from a church group and Ms. Simons said "you guys of all people in a church group!" Ha ha. That was funny. We could never be in a church group... whooo, stream of conciousness writing... it doesn't need to make sense or be relevant! I'm James Joyce! I'm a famous writer! <---he writes stream of conciousness-like sometimes. i do not enjoy most of it. some is okay, but "Dubliners" is a real snooze.
Yuki
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09:02 p.m.---Sunday, May 19, 2002
Hm. Miko had a pretty negative prom review and Ishiko didn't write one yet, so here's what I thought. It wasn't all that bad. I liked getting dressed up, because the only time that I ever get dressed up is for cosplay, so it had that good cosplay feeling. I love my dress and I had a blast with those silly fake eyelashes. I didn't end up using the roses I bought at all, because while Machi might like to have a big pile of roses on his head, I do not. It looked too silly, so I wore my hair in the usual way. Otherwise all that getting ready stuff was okay and I managed to not break out and to do a good job on my and Amanda's makeup.
We at dinner at a local restaurant. Most everyone got a grilled cheese sandwich, or salad or Ishiko got an icky quiche (which led to lot's of uncalled for Die jokes). I didn't get grilled cheese. It's gross and the bread it toasty. Gods, if I had been sitting next to Miko I would have stabbed her eyes out with a fork because she kept making fun of me because I can't eat toast (it makes me gag or vomit, so that's not pleasant). It's okay though, because there were enough "Miko had a crush on the history teacher" jokes to get her back with. We were an hour late to the prom because we got lost, which really was no loss, because it was boring and just like any other school dance only everyone was dressed up and it was in a different place. We pretty much just stood around for a long time and did nothing, and I don't agree with Miko that we could have had more fun because there really isn't much to do when you're not a dancing sort of person. Anyway, Miko, I didn't see you trying to have fun at all. If we could have had it, then you should have! At one point we hid some balloons under the hoop in Miko's dress...We left two hours early with a lot of balloons and favors. I didn't think it was that bad, but I was happy to leave.
We had alot more fun driving around and going to Barnes and Nobles (it was about 10:30pm) and Wal-Mart in our dresses. They were the only places that were open that late. I really liked this part because we were all crazy and hungry. A crazy woman harassed Miko for a long time. It was really funny. I ran away from her (the crazy woman), then Miko had to keep hidden from her the rest of the time we were in the store. Around midnight we decided to head home, so we did and everyone collapsed on Ishiko's floor and died. Well, not right away, because first we had to eat lots of chips and candy and watch "Lake Placid" on Sci-Fi, which is possible the stupidest movie I've ever seen. Giant crocodile. Lake Placid. IN MAINE. (it's in NY, not MAINE!) So that was all good and I'm completely exhausted. Overall, I would say that it was fun. Nothing really bad happened and everyone managed to stay in a good mood! Yay!
Here's a link if you want to see our pics: Prom Picsssss
I went shopping with my mommy today and got the most wonderful dress to wear at graduation. I love it. It's white and puffy and very Gothic Lolita!
I can't believe I'm going to be in Japan soon! I will be seeing Dir en Grey one month from TODAY!!!!!!! ^_^ Ah, I'm tired, better go to bed, even though I already had I nap today...
Yuki
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09:12 p.m.---Friday, May 17, 2002
So it begins...(long rant on cleaning my face and plucking my brows, be warned!)
I know I posted earlier, but that was only at the BEGINNING of my "cleaning myself up for prom" regimine. Since the hair dying, I've been doing alot of other things that I usually don't do. I am doing this because I want to make a habit of it, and I think prom is a good starting point! So anyway, after I rinsed off my head and shampooed out the extra dye I PLUCKED my eyebrows back to being orderly. It's not that I don't usually, but often by the time I get the first one half decent I am too lazy to do the other one, so I finish it quickly... and that never looks excellent...so I did I good job. After that I removed hair from some places where I don't want it, such as between my eyebrows (too much trouble to pluck there) and near my temple. Who needs hair there! Not me! I really should have done my legs too, but I didn't feel like it. Definitely going to though... soon! I am really thankful though that I'm not the type of girl who has a hairy upper lip, because that would be a real pain in the ass! (yes,I really think about these things, but I was trying to see where I didn't want hair and that WOULD be a place. Girls DO NOT need upper lip hair!) But all that wasn't good enough!...*dun dun dahhhhhhhh*
So I ran down to Rite-Aid (which I had MEANT to do earlier) and picked up some of those stick-to-your-face-suck-the-crap-out-of-your-pores strips, a mud mask and some scrubby stuff. (I was all out of scrubby stuff! I used most of it getting the Vaseline off my hair line!) I did the mask, which just like the other mask I have made my face burny but I didn't have an allergic reation and am now getting all the goo sucked out of my pores. I was really surprised that the one I put on my nose actually worked! ALOT! Usually these things don't do much, but there was alot of ickyness on that one... aren't you all so glad that I share? Don't worry, I will be back to my usual j-rock ranting soon enough, but I am on a facial kick today!
I really am turing into my sister. I am giving myself a FACIAL. I used a MASK. I complained to my parents that my PORES were BIG. (oh but they are! what I wouldn't give for nice little pores!) My sister ALWAYS says/does stuff like that! I remember when I used to run away when she wanted to do stuff to my face... but of course that was before I got perpetual acne. Seriously, even medication can't get rid of it and I'm a very clean person. *sob* It's not faaaaaaaaaair. And it's going to scar more and I'm going to look like a burn victim soon. *sob* I hate my skin!!
Yuki
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03:53 p.m.---Friday, May 17, 2002
Oh gods, I can practically FEEL my pores clogging...
I'm re-dying my hair red so that it's as Machi as it can be for the prom (yes, Machi is now also an adjective!) and I've got petroleum jelly all around my hair line (to prevent from dying my forehead red and whatnot) and it's so icky. I keep going to scratch my head and coming away with an icky sticky finger. Ewwww. But I get to rinse in about 15 minutes, so I'm counting down.
I'm also sick. I've got allergies or a cold or something and my nose is all stuffy. I could hardly breathe during 5th period today though, so I guess I am doing a little better. I am just worried that I will get really excited about something WHILE my nose and throat are all clogged, because when I get overly excited I breathe less... and I might black out or something. Ishiko is really worried that I am going to stop breathing when we go see Dir en Grey, as they do make me really excited and as I do sometimes forget to breathe... But at least we are right next to each other (second floor, R18, seats 3&4! which is pretty good and if we can't see over people's heads we're in the back row of that side so we can stand on our chairs...) so if I die, she can save me! Oh, that's right, speaking of this, B_Moon was also so kind that she got a ticket for Ishiko too! Aw, she's so nice! I have to e-mail her (I think it's her...) later and tell her how nice she is again. ^_^
Yuki
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09:08 p.m.---Wednesday, May 15, 2002
First, I posted earlier this evening. I very nice surprise, leading to a very estatic rant! But here is the continuation (since I said that I was going to say what I did today!):
Well, today Ishiko, Mikoto, Amanda, Melissa and Matt went to Boston to do some shopping. We skipped school to do it, but it was only a half day anyway and they were having some rediculous "field day". Things started off okay... After last night's crazy shirt crisis, we managed a very decent Gothic Lolita quartet (Melissa and Matt are included here). It took me a LONG time to curl Amanda's hair because she has a TON of it, but it looked really cute (up in two curly ponytails). So things WERE going well.. Until we got to the T station (the T being what we call the subway/train thingy in Boston) and the parking was horrible! It was really crowded, even though it was nine a.m., because most people go to work before that and there was no way that we could have beat them! So we (in two cars) drove up to the roof for parking. None. Drove around some. Nothing. Then we stopped and realized that Melissa's car had a flat tire. So that had to get changed. Ishiko and Miko and Amanda found and guarded a parking space for me, so I parked my car finally! Then there was more tire fun and then a half hour later we got on the T and were off! We hit Sasuga and the Japanese market at Porter's Square, but there were NO j-rock magazines! (which is what miko and Ishiko wanted) There did not appear to be any Gothic & Lolita Bibles either, but just after I had set my heart on getting Angel Sanctuary vol. 7 and 9 Ishiko found GLB Volume2! It was so nice because I thought that she would buy it, but she handed it to me. I felt very lucky! So I got that and we headed for the Garment District (it's a very nice store!).
Once there I did not find any clothes that I liked! *pout* Last time there were so many good things, this time not so much. They didn't even have the black and blue striped tights that I wanted (like Myaku Toshiya's!), but I found this really lovely pair of glittery powder blue Mary Janes with about a four inch heel. (That probably sounds really ugly, but they aren't and I LOVE powder blue in some contexts!) Only $14.00! Deal! Also got a charm bracelet with crosses and hearts on it. Then... oh, right, we went down to Newbury Street and wandered there for a while. We went to the Hello Kitty store! I like it there alot! I bought a Nyago cup and hair clips (Nyago is one of the newer Sanrio things. He's a striped cat and sleeps ALOT. Very cute. One of my favorites.) No one else except Melissa liked the Kogepan! I think they are so cute! Anyway...
The first and most important thing to remember is that fashion and comfort do not walk hand in hand. (Which I KNEW, but I did not THINK about!) Elegant Gothic Lolita can often lead to Uncomfortable-Bleeding Gothic Lolita! (Amanda's feet were actually bleeding from her shoes, icky. And Miko got this MASSIVE cut on her knuckle that she doesn't even know where it came from and she got blood all over her purse. I thought it looked really cool, but that's me...and my thing with blood...*_*) Shoes. Shoes are an important thing! I really need more comfortable GL shoes, because mine are not too great and neither were anyone else's. By the end of the day we were all walking really slow and not having much feeling in our toes! Sometimes comfort has to come first, ne.
Anyway, some interesting things in the search engines lately! The usual TON of Lolita BBS ones... All of my friends came up though and so did I (I really got the worst one! Wahh!).
So that's that. I am exhausted because I drove ALOT today. It's almost a two hour drive to the T station, plus the fact that we got lost on the way home and had to drive around Massachusetts for a while. Argh. Then FINALLY we got back where we belonged and ate some pie.
Damn, I think this graphic is too wide, but here it is:
Yuki
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07:19 p.m.---Wednesday, May 15, 2002
*gasp gasp gasp gasp gaspppppppppp*!!! Why isn't there anyone with me right now who will be excited about this with me (and make sure that i keep breathing)!?!?!? *falls over*
*sniffle* B_Moon got me a Dir en Grey ticket for June 19th!!!!!!!!! It was so unexpected! So niceeeee! I really am going to cry if I'm not careful, because that's just how excited I am! It will cost 8000 yen, but I don't care because it's Dir en Grey and I LOOOOOOOOOOVE them! Today just could not get any better for me! I don't think I can write anything else right now because I'm too happy to think! I will come back when I have calmed down a little and talk about the rest of my day. SHI-A-WA-SEEEEEEEEEEE! (you have to watch the Yami no Matsuei anime and think of that the way Tsuzuki says it, or the effect is not the same!)
Yuki
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09:16 p.m.---Monday, May 13, 2002
This one starts out bad/depressed and gets happy and VERY VERY Pierrot-y at the end, so watch out! It's a LOOOONNNNNGGG one! I've been writing it for about 30 minutes...!
I get the feeling that they're trying to guilt me out of going. I'm speaking of my parents and college. All they've done since I got my acceptance letter is bother me about the cost. I know it costs alot. I know we don't have alot of money. But what happened to "If you want to go to college, you can do it!" I WANT to go to college. I KNOW that it costs alot. But can't I still do it? Even if I have to pay off loans for the rest of my life, can't I still do it? Why can't they just let me be happy that I got accepted for at least a little while? I was so happy that I cried (alot) when I got my acceptance letter last Saturday, now I'm just sitting here and appreciating the fact that I can type without looking at my fingers and crying. It hurts. It hurts alot to feel that I don't have their support. This college wasn't just about going anywhere that isn't home. I thought that I was making good decision to pick up the idea of going again. (since I dropped it for a month when I didn't get into any colleges...) Apparently not... First she (mommy) tells me it costs too much, then it goes from that to something I said that she interpreted wrong, then it's "you're not trying hard enough", then it somehow got to how I have to "stop crying all the time because it's not going to work in the REAL WORLD," and that I need to stop living in my own little world. I don't TRY to cry. I can't STOP being so damned sensitive. This is the way that I am. This is the way that I've always been. Hasn't she been living with me for the last 18 years? Did she miss that? She practically called me a stupid wuss, compared me to death with my sister who I hate right now for putting such a bad precedent up that my parents think I'm going to follow (quitting college early, she only had ONE semester left!). So I'm bitter and I'm angry and I feel like lying down and dying. Japan... must go to Japan... it's all I've got to look forward to, now that I can't even look forward to college in peace.
Well, since this is all so pleasant, I guess that I can look forward to losing that half-inch that I was so proud to put onto my waist. I'm sickly thin, for those who don't know. I lost three inches from my waist in about a month and all from stress. I guess my metabolism picks up ALOT when I'm stressed out, because I also lost two inches from my arms and am now a 110-pound weakling. (I'm 5'3", so this might not sound gross, but I've got what Miko calls "concentration camp arms". I don't think they're THAT bad!) The last time I got all blah and skinny was when my mom was all over me about finding a job and going to college. Hm. GOING to COLLEGE. I was soooooooo depressed and lost and sad and I considered killing myself for the first time EVER and got dangerously close. ^_^ Yikes. I sure was scary back then (it's all in the blog, dears, just gotta go back further), wasn't I? Not going to let that happen again! Too scary! Where was I going with that? Oh, yeah, so I was really depressed and I lost alot of weight and none of my clothes fit right and I went on that infamous long rant about how my chest shrunk considerably (it did!). SO I'm HOPING that since I'm going to Japan soon, that will be a nice buffer from the ol' parents. Six weeks without them! Whooo! Well, Dad isn't so bad, because he just leaves me alone and let's mom be the bad guy. Ha ha. Isn't that like Miko and I with Ishiko? Miko stays out and I ALWAYS end up the bad guy even when we're of equal blame! Ha ha.
Well, today at work I really spaced out. I was standing there (stacking the clean dishes, rather than stacking the dirty ones for once!) and I just really went off. First I was thinking about... teeth again (will explain in next paragraph), then I started singing "Genome Control" (Pierrot) in my head afterwhich I had a long thought about how cool Aiji looks during said song in "Dictator's Circus V". Come on though, he looks REALLY cool. And he's not even my favorite! But he is ONE COOL GUY! (like Yukito! "hi, I'm yukito and i'm a cool guy!") Well, we all know that he looks better than "the Sauce" (meaning Kohta, so nicknamed by Miko, Ishiko and I, and as far as I am concerned that is his NAME, not Kohta, SAUCE) because he is just a spaz and he's kinda stupid looking (awwww, mean yuki!). And he (Aiji) looks better than Jun during this song too, but maybe that's just because everytime I see Jun I laugh at him (only when the mood strikes me!), because I just can't get over that open-mouth-wide-eyed look of his! And Kirito. We know that I love Kirito, so I won't start on that. What the hell? Since when do I rant about my infamous "five-song band"?! (five being the number of Pierrot songs on my computer and I can only name about three of them... ^_^) So anyway, on with the rant... Miko agreed with me yesterday though that there is just something about Pierrot that is very funny. We don't know WHAT, but we were watching Dictator's Circus V and we pretty much just randomly laugh through the whole thing. Especially me. It was weird though, because yesterday we were looking for the part with Jun that REALLY makes me laugh and instead I laughed at Aiji. He wasn't even DOING anything (except playing, but I mean anything unusual.).... Hm... Pieeeeerrrrrrrrrroottttttt RAAAAAAANNNNNNTTTTT!
Okay, so about the teeth. I was reading something the other day about how Die has straight teeth and Toshiya does not. And suddenly I realized it. I LIKE Toshiya's teeth. Crooked and all. Possibly one of my favorite things about him. I figure it's because he's so pretty and perfect looking and then he's got these really crooked teeth and... it's just nice that he's not so vain to change them! And plus they give him that dopey weird smile, which is so cute! Yes, so I can even find teeth attractive in the right person's mouth and they need not be straight!
Oh gods, I never thought I would want to admit this publically, but when I am in a really bad mood the one thing that cheers me up is U+K, yes, THAT U+K by The Gackt (as I call him now, and it MUST be capitalized) himself. I am shamelessly in love with this song! It makes me happy no matter what! Oh and Fuyu Tokyo right after... my Winamp really does love me!
Yuki
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08:54 p.m.---Sunday, May 12, 2002
I'm sooooooo tired. And I've got sooo much e-mail. I didn't get to check my e-mail this morning, so my mailing lists have filled my inbox. Now it's time to weed out the stupid ones...
Anyway, I HAVE to remember to bleach Mikoto's gloves for the prom. HAVE TO. They're very yellowy and stained right now and that just won't do. (I bought them at an antique store and she is borrowing them.) I have some things to dye black too, now that I have the dye... Hmph. I have to work tomorrow, but maybe if I'm lucky I will have time. I've been exhausted (it went away for a month and now it's back!) lately. So I've been taking naps. Stupid time consuming naps!
But anyway, I have to make myself a decent puffy net petticoat for Wednesday too, because Mikoto, Ishiko, Amanda and I are going down to Boston and we're dressing Gothic Lolita (of course). I'm so happy that Amanda is letting us dress her up and she is so nervous. She usually wears tee-shirts and jeans, so this is a big change for her! But after she bought platform Mary-Janes she must have KNOWN that she was just ASKING for us to Lolita-ize her! I have to fix my old puffy skirts too, because I think I'm supposed to be loaning them out. *_* No problem! Agh. I can't wait for Wednesday though, because I'm hoping to buy another Gothic & Lolita bible and some clothes too. Clothes... love to buy clothes!
Crap. I forgot about my English homework. Oh well. She can't expect much. I missed most of the movie that wasn't just battles. Oh, right, we're watching "Gladiator" in English because we've been talking about Marcus Aurelius alot in class. So even though he's only in the movie for a short while, we're watching it. I don't mind though, because even though it's not my favorite movie, it's not bad. Even better since we get to watch it in SCHOOL. ^_^
Yuki
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11:48 p.m.---Saturday, May 11, 2002
Newwwwww layout. And I archived (of course). Also, this will be a very VERY long entry, as I have oh so much to say!
Visual Princess: Wa ha ha. Kakoii yo! I will have to read your blog from now on! (even if you didn't read mine, you like Dir en Grey, LAREINE, Ayashi no Ceres AND Gothic Lolita, so what's not good?) I'm glad that we've been so (ha ha) "inspirational" for blogging, espeicially since I write so much horrible stuff in here! I guess you are lucky that none of us have boyfriends (supposing that we were lifeless enough to only talk about them in our blogs, which I wouldn't be because then there would be less space to whine about other things and have my j-rock rants)!
About not having a boyfriend...All the guys around here are swine, really, it's not even worth the trouble (and everyone knows that boyfriends cost money and that would hurt my j-rock boyfriends!). Okay, so not all of them are, bad but they are not dateable, right? But all of this rediculous paragraph leads to my actual point! Ah yes! I had to go off on this guy tangent, because it reminded me of this quote that I read: "There's alot of good fish in the sea... maybe...but the vast masses seem to be mackerel or herring, and if you're not a mackerel or herring yourself, you are likely to find very few good fish in the sea." Isn't that great? It's from "Lady Chatterley's Lover" by D.H. Lawrence, which I am currently reading for no real reason at all. It's got some good quotes though...
Good newsssss! I got into college at long last, so I will indeed be shipping off to Hofstra in the fall. Joy. It's quite a relief, though I've no idea how I'm to pay for it... financial aid, please...
I have noticed lately that my tastes are getting a little... odd. Like Kyo odd. ^_^ Maybe it's from having that "I eat people" magnet of him that I made right in my line of sight whenever I sit at my computer. (it's this picture of kyo all bloody and gross at a live and he looks like he just took his face out of a corpse, afterwhich I put the text " i eat people" on it and made a magnet. And yet... I find him attractive like that...ewwww) But then again that magnet is right next to my GIANT Toshiya magnet and that didn't change things for me and Tochi. Not that much could, since I've been a Toshiya fan since the first time I SAW him, followed by realizing that he is SO SO freakishly talented! Anyway, I've got this weird fixation with blood. Not like an "i'm going to cut myself and watch it bleed" fixation, because that would hurt, but just blood in general. On things. Especially hand prints. Maybe like... you know that whole "I'm wrapped in gauze and bloody and crazy and injured look" (i'm talking about fashion). I really find that appealing. So it doesn't need to be real blood, that's not at all necessary, just... I can't even explain this! I was trying to analyze it the other day and that got no where. I guess it's like the way that I find screaming to be quite attractive. I mentioned this to Mikoto in the car the other day, how Kyo screaming is attractive to me in the same way that we find Klaha to be very good looking. The Klaha example was because Miko and I were walking down the hall at school one day and talking about Klaha and well... I think we got a little too excited! So it's like that! Um, yes, I'm a freak.
Oh and a big squishy SANKYUUUUUUU to Nitt-chan for hosting my files for my blog over a her place! Isn't that nice of her?!
Wahaha! I am so much less a lesbian than people seem to think! (really, some people think so, I don't know WHY, but they do! I don't even TOUCH my friends, since we all don't like being touched, so it's not like I'm hanging all over them, let alone anything else...)
ishiko girl gallery
Yuki sex pics (um, no thanks!)
mikoto winamp
Gakuto-kun (i do call him that, don't I?)
jrock Pierrot gallery (i think I talked about them enough on monday for this to make sense...)
la cryma christi hiro gallery (I am still SO SO sure that I have never typed la cryma christi into this blog! Except for last time someone searched and got it...)
ash and nurse joy sex pics (seriously. there is just something WRONG with that! for those who haven't had the "pleasure" of seeing the show, we're talking about Pokemon here. the dub. ewwwww. let's have less pics like that!)
Are you PINK or EVIL?!
In case it doesn't show, I am the PERFECT mix of pink and evil, truly 50/50! And hide and Kaoru are on it! Kaoruuuuu! Ah, I miss his pink hair. It was so great!
How Gay Are YOU? [?]
Yuki
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