03:53 p.m.---Thursday, August 30, 2001
Well, yesterday was the first day of my last year of high school. I'm not very pleased with the outlook for this year. It's going to be...boring. It's just not looking good. I don't mean to be pessimistic (generally, I try not to be) but that's my first impression. Luckily my classes are easy...
Yuki
08:56 p.m.---Monday, August 27, 2001
I have so much thinking to do. Costuming being my full time job, of course, so it requires all my thought. I have this comission just now for a Kamui (X) school uniform along with a set of black wings and a set of white feathered wings. The wings need to be (a) detachable from their base and (b) large. I am glad that -I- am not the one wearing them, lovely as they will be. And I am also glad that I am not the one paying the shipping...cross country shipping. I'm thinking of building them on spring clamps so that they can be detachable and not fall off. Progress is slow right now though, because I STILL haven't been able to quote an exact price for poor Edward yet. All I know so far is $60uniform + 2 sets of expensive wings + expensive shipping = a damn fine, but super expensive costume. I've stopped taking commissions simply because of this costume. It's going to be interesting to make...
Yuki
07:03 p.m.---Saturday, August 25, 2001
This is what I was GOING to post yesterday, but everytime that I tried, my browser shut down...
August 24- Ah, so Beth is having a LAREINE overdose. If you aren't Ishiko, best to read her blog entry for August 24 to understand the rant that I am on the verge of having. I saw that coming a mile away. No matter how much one loves something after about two months of nothing but that thing it begins to lose its value. I, personally, do not have this problem, because I never stick to one thing and covet only that thing. And they all thought that I was crazy when I said that I didn't want to watch that Lareine video AGAIN so soon for gods sake. Ha ha ha. So the day has come for Beth to move on. The day has come to expand her horizons... The New It'll-Last-Two-Months-Before-the-Overdose band is Dir en Grey.
Enough of that. I finished that stupid NDE Titanic book today. SO SO stupid. It's called "Passage", don't read it. I have to buy new shoes. That is my other goal. Even if they are impractical. They are big and chunky and buckle-y and Ishiko calls them the "Frankenstein Boots", but for $47 I figure I can think of some way to get them...Somehow...
Back to today: my mom is going to buy me those shoes. I FINALLY have another job interview and I'm going to go take a nap before Ishiko picks me up at 10.
Yuki
12:32 a.m.---Friday, August 24, 2001
Well, Ishiko and I did talk about monopolies, but that is a thing of the past. (not the monopolies, the discussion) It brought us right back where we started: finders, keepers. Waste of time. The topic is no longer up for ANY discussion what so ever. We both got very confused and surly, then retired to write this entry or read fanfics. Yuki
10:12 p.m.---Monday, August 20, 2001
AAAAHHH! I finally remembered to archive everything. I kept forgetting and forgetting and writing really long things here so that the page was just all long. (I can be obsessive-compulsive about organization at times and at other times completely disregard it) Today Beth and Ishiko and I went to the Salvation Army. Yup, we shop there. Sometimes I feel bad shopping there when there are poor people who actually HAVE to shop there, but everything was on sale for a dollar and I needed neck ties. I also got this horrible red and black "moo moo" (as I suppose they are called) with a Chinese-esque print on it. I fully intend to wear it.
I am having something of a writer's block. I finally struggled to part 2 of Epica (Ishiko and my comic thing, which I script) and I am ssssooo stuck on it. I need to bring in all of these other characters and they are NOT cooperating. Someday they will, but not as quickly as I would like them to...grrr...I think that Lucian is my problem. Lucian is a small boy, about 10, who lives with and dotes on Simon, who is...Simon. I might as well talk about this more. Ishiko will read it probably. What is going on with Simon, the eternal question (no, that's not really it). Well, in this take of Epica everyone has all their memories and stuff, BUT (uh oh, not that) Simon is having trouble remembering things. He is after all missing some vital pieces of his past, so he's still got that sickness and is still slowly dying as a result. Only this time it came out more like Alzheimer's (sp) or amnesia. Sometimes he knows why he's on earth and who he really is and that sort of thing and sometimes he doesn't. When he enters he's having one of his good days. I think Eve will visit him. They are more dynamic as a pair than most of the other characters tend to be (yes, Eve should be "dynamic" with Sebastian and she is, but she and Simon have more interesting conversations. Eve can play well off anyone.). So that's Simon for today. I'm also still trying to decide if Cid knew Eve...but I'm not sure that I want to use that anymore. That messes things up for Lev later though...(how many times do i have to re-write that damn "happy happy lev gets a kiss" scene?) We'll see. I need to bring in AT LEAST Eve, Simon, Lucian, Cid, Ciro and Masaki though. Gabriel and Sebastian can wait for part 3. Hm. I'm tired....oyasumiiiiiii
Yuki
So what else am I currently doing? Being myself, thinking about the Kamui costume, thinking about writing and downloading Malice Mizer PVs. I'm currently to poor to buy anything (and will be for at least the next year) so I have to let things that I get off the internet be enough to sustain my j-rock obsession. I always feel guilty if I donwload things, especially if I burn CDs, but I always know that when I have the funds I will buy all the things anyway. I eventually I will be properly supporting my bands, but just not right now. It only took me a YEAR to finally buy the Raphael video that I wanted...only a year... But at least I'm not going to be stupid and never buy anything like some people (not that I know any, but it is done). As long as I like j-rock, I am willing to pay large sums of money to own the REAL things.
Anyway... I am worried about my friend Heather. As always. She was dating my cousin who was (and still is) an abusive cruel bastard. He was so mean! He was OBVIOUSLY just using her for two things: sex and money. He cheated on her. He spit at her. He called her names and said that she hated her. You'd think that those would be her clues to stay away from him... but no, that would be too easy. That would just be too damn easy. Why did she start dating him anyway? Well, he was nice then, right? And he was the first guy to ever ask her on a date. But that didn't stick, because he couldn't be nice forever. And yet, she stayed with him. So that lasted over a year and she got all emotionally attached and stuff. He didn't even let her have friends. Or wear skirts. And constantly accused her of cheating on him. She had a tough time breaking up with him, but it appears that even with the break up (this being like their 10th breakup and the longest one to date) she isn't going to let him go. He still treats her like shit, she still hangs around with him. Only now their just "friends", sure, just like the time they were "friends with benefits" right? I realize that it's not easy to break up with someone you think you love, especially when you are Heather, the weakest person I know, and the girl who also gets the prize for most screwed up family life and health. But REALLY, it's just going to be the same as it was before if they get back together. He'll come around when he's horny or he wants money for drugs and she'll give it all to him. He'll be mean and no matter how mean he is she'll be nice. All it takes is for him to be "civil" toward her and she crawls right back to him. How can she even stand to be friends with someone who treats her that way? I wish that she'd just see that she has friends and that she doesn't need him. There are tons of guys out there who would treat her like a queen and she takes the worst of the bunch. Just yesterday she told me that he was "so mean" and that she wasn't going to bother with him anymore, even as just a friend, because he wasn't worth wasting the time on. Then today I see her walking down the hall with him. I, of course, yell after her and she stops and he keeps on going. And OF COURSE she obviously knows what I am up to and immediatly starts to defend him. Then to make things worse she breaks her plans with my friends and I after school because "her mom called and said that she had to come home." I don't know if I can even believe her anymore. I want to, but now I feel like she's probably just ditching us to go get abused by her "friend". Grrrrr. I just wish that it was easier to see this all from her point of view, because I REALLY can not understand this. I try to be nice to her about him. I try to tell her everything straight and not be nice to him, while still being nice to her, but it is just so hard. And I am just going to lie down and cry because I absolutely can not handle the stress of trying to keep an eye on her anymore. I can't feel like she's safe if she's even relatively near a relationship like that. I look back to when we used to be really really good friends and I wonder how something like this could have happened to her...
Well, I finally have a job. I like it, really, but I HAVE to get more hours as soon as possible. Right now they have me working one day of every other weekend, and that, frankly, is just not enough. Money is quite an important thing to me just now for many reasons (trip to Japan, expensive hobbies, need for new things, impulse buying, cosplay...). So that's what I'm mostly thinking about today...
I just found out my "pirate name" and let me say... it's interesting. "Dirty Anne Kidd". I'd prefer NOT to have the "dirty" part, but hey, I did take the cleanest response possible for the question about bathing so who knows how that came about. Maybe it was from saying that I would eat my parrot...I'm "the pirate that everyone else wants to throw in the ocean"...ha, I have to try this again. I can do better than being smelly...Okay, now it's "Black Anne Kidd". Well, I am not smelly now, I am just pessimistic.
I love Dir en Grey. They were my second j-rock band (not counting knowing something of X-Japan, but who likes anime/manga/anything and doesn't know X-Japan? Very few people that I know.). I am happy to find someone close by who really loves them as much as I do! Then we can talk about them all the time and about how Shinya is underweight and all that stuff. Of course, I will have to wait for Beth to have her overdose before I can really enjoy her being a DeG fan. And she'll have one too. I can see it coming from here. She's just going to be super obsessive for a while... and then I have to make sure that I buy something before she does. It's a goal that I am setting for myself for personal insane reasons. (I have liked them for so long and bought NOTHING yet. I am a BAD BAD fan!) Oh and Ishiko-chan, for reference, I can spend four hours looking at stuff on one band. I haven't spent that long recently, but looking back, I can and do do that.
Beth, much like myself, is a Kyo fan. And this, this really scared me, she likes him more than Emiru right now. This is scary because Beth LOVES Emiru and her life is VERY influenced by his style when he was in Lareine. I think she needs to get her head checked. I can't wait to see the resulting Kyo/Emiru hybrid though. Oh course, my admitting that I like Kyo more than most j-rockers (Machi being the specific one there. It's hard to explain why this would have any effect or why it is even relevant. Only Beth and Ishiko need to understand its importance) probably isn't helping. And the fact that I have been talking about DeG an awful lot lately...ha ha ha ha ha! The spreading of a virus...
Today I worked for a long time on a Tot (weib kreuz) costume that I have been comissioned to make. It's almost done. Just a little hemming and I forgot to buy snaps, so there's nothing holding parts of it togther.
I said that I was going to go to bed early tonight, but after two hours of discussing the worlds most rediculous topic (Ishiko would agree) I can't just go to sleep. So I'm sitting here listening to Dir en Grey (how ironic) and drinking alot of water. I'm reading this book (fictional) about near-death experiences and these doctors who are trying to figure out what causes them. And this one doctor becomes part of the experiment and sees the Titanic in her NDEs. I thought that was so stupid. It's not a very good book, but the Titanic-NDE doctor just got stabbed and died after she found out that the Titanic is not some big connection in NDEs (thank god). If she comes back to life I just might scream. Of course, I can't imagine that happening, since she did get one of those autopsies with the y-cut on the chest and you can't exactly just walk around with THAT. But this is a stupid book, so who knows. I'm looking for it to improve. I was just glad that most of that Titanic thing fell through. It's going to be back though. I can feel it coming. I need a new book. Or some manga. I have a backlog of Angel Sanctuary to read, but I want some Higuri You and all that was at Kinokuniya last time I was there was Seimaden 6 and I couldn't just get the sixth one. Oh well. AS is it. I really should read that. I need to print the translations though. My version of "reading" a manga consists of me reading the kana (thank the gods for furigana, if that's what it's called, i'm too tired to think right), and not understanding a bit of it. I have a SMALL vocabulary and though I used to be able to read (not the same as understand) hiragana quite well and knew some katakana, I've slowed down from not practicing often enough. *sigh* Where is that AS tankouban?
MYSELF
Name:Lynnette
LIKES
Manga:
Angel Sanctuary, Yami no Matsuei, other Kaori Yuki and Higuri You stuff
guardian angel : Katan (I don't think that I am getting this anymore, probably because of this terrible layout...)
CURRENTLY
Listening to:
ARCHIVES
OTHER PAGES
Neo-Nemesis
-fan and original art page
Ingenue
-cosplay and comissions
OTHER BLOGS
L'etranger(Ishiko's blog)
Nickname:
Yuki
Age:
17
Birthdate:
21 January
BloodType:
B
AIM:
CatsySpaceCake
Anime:
(currently) Cowboy Bebop, Utena....
J-rock:
Raphael, Lareine, Dir en Grey, Kagrra, Malice Mizer
Other Music:
Radiohead, Bjork
Food:
Daifuku!, "bread"ha ha ha
Color:
Light blue, burgundy
Books:
1984 (Orwell), The Neverending Story (Ende)
Ain't Afraid to Die, Dir en Grey (30/8/01)
Kimi no Utaertame no Kotoba, LuciferLuciousViolenoue (27/8/01)
Warui Hito, Fanatic Crisis (25/8/01)
Cage, Dir en Grey (23/8/01)
White Love Story, Raphael (17/8/01)
Last Letter, Pierrot (15/8/01)
Beast of Blood, Malice Mizer (13/8/01)
Yume Yori Sutekina, Raphael (10/8/01)
Gerbe, LAREINE (7/8/01)
Akuro no Oka, Dir en Grey(6/8/01)
Drinking:
pink lemonade
Feeling:
confused, disappointed, worried and sad
Thinking About:
my friends
8-20/8/01
Petronia
I am too lazy to find the rest of them. I noticed that I seldom return to a blog, so this is all I can scrape together for now.